Introducing The Theory Series (NSFW)

legal drug use involved.

Rerouting MY anxiety. Not recommended to follow.

Anxiety: A feeling of fear, dread, or uneasiness that can be a reaction to stress.

About my anxiety, ever since i can remember in grade school, middle school, high school, my jobs, and even family functions, the feeling of dread and uneasiness just overtakes me

At 34 years something changed, What changed? My overall preparation to combat anxiety. To deal with my anxiety, I have to be a stricted routine type of person and that's where it all began. In 2024 I became 1 with my anxiety.

I started working at a cannabis facility while smoking prescribed marijuana. Said prescription is for anxiety. With smoking I was able to become a routine person, dieting, exercising, doing carpentry, cleaning the house non-stop and even taking online courses after work.

Going to work 2.5 hours away, being away from kids 4-5 days a week, working 7am-7pm (give or take 2-3 hours included). Standing up all day while hunched over trimming cannabis. Being in a cold environment of, what felt like 50 degrees wearing a thin long sleeve, ate oatmeal 3x a day, exercising 1 hour after work, and taking online 1 hour courses on UPSkillist.com for coding. Taking a night time cold bath/showers. Wake up at 6am cold baths/showers for 3-5 minutes. We ate lunch at our hotel room and with my oatmeal i was taking a cold shower also did a 15 minute workout.

My body was under so much stress from the aching of working out, standing up with bad posture, cold environment and the mental stress of wanting to leave work at 5pm instead of leaving on a made up time. I say 7am-7pm just because of the average time we did stay was like till 9pm-11pm for a good while.
**(I did break my diet at times due to high stress)**

All that for 6-7 months, I was mentally/physically fatigued and just about every day I was on the edge of giving up/crying but some how fought through it.

Let us talk about the facility I worked at. Just about every male was better looking, in shape, cool aura, and smart. Just straight rockstars. It was like being in Spiderman's Across The Spideyverse. Everyone must have a background to be a Spiderman. Which makes sense because there all types of Spidermans. I was becoming one of them...

I was working out hard, creating business cards of DubbyEnergy as an affiliate, sporting my $4.99 orange sunglasses, my W-Wikipedia pin and not breaking on my type of routine of wearing a thin long sleeve, and standing up while hurting. It was like I went to play a Major Sports League for 10+ hours a day/4 days a week.

Once I had my gear and stopped my diet and ate filling foods, it was then when I became control of what I was always meant to become, a competitor. Stronger than my anxiety but respecting my anxiety makes me step up when a challenge arises. 

Then May 15th, 2024 happened, I lost my job, my girlfriend left me, got kicked out of 2 houses, and my progress of becoming a better me got resetted.

I'm on a different progress, life is now testing me to see how many times I will continue getting up and what I can endure. Mentally/physically i'm even more fatigued than I was and I have all the free time like a vacation but with no job, no family to take care of, no exercising, diet is nonexistential at this point and I don't see the end of the tunnel anytime soon. Life is trying to figure out what is gonna break me. Me creating content on TikTok and continuing my website is my new test. Will I give up on my content or will I evolve into a new unknown mindset? In time destiny will decide, or rather, I will decide because we are in control of own destiny.

FAQs

What was the name of facility did you work at?
I will not disclose any information because you can't reveal superhero's secret lair and identities.

What type of workout did you do for 1 hour?
Full body exercise, hangcleans, sit-ups, push-ups and mild jogs.

Was anything added to the oatmeal?
Yes, from Wal-mart, Better Body Foods, Organic protein, purple package.

Why didn't marijuana make you lazy?
Anxiety is fierce and my belief is that they balanced each other out.

Why do you not recommend to follow?
If someone did the same and had a breakdown it would be detrimental to their life. That being said, I don't think there can be a recreation of my experience of how mentally exhausted i was going to work every time and barely holding on at the end of every work day.